I’ve no idea what should I do now. It’s not as if I can’t handle it. But it’s more of don’t wanna do this anymore.
Wished someone could hear my cry. I’m lost. So lost. Be it work, family or whatsoever. I’ve been giving a ‘hackcare’ kind of attitude basically to everything.
Should I continue for another 1 month? This is still a question. I’m so flicked minded & this suck so much.
If I don’t continue. What am I supposed to do? I need the money. I really need it. Bank loan is not gonna be the choice that I wanna choose.
So many things is going thru my mind now. I’ve so many plans on the month of June. No freaking idea of what I want.
A, I wanted to move on long ago. I really do, but it seem that I can’t. Right now I can’t even looked into your eyes. What’s wrong with me? You’re just getting better each day. Now I’m not anymore closer to you. Not at all or maybe I’m the one who’s looking at it. I can feel that she loves you more than I do. I mean longer than me. She’s prettier, slimmer, so much smarter than me. She’s so much better than me almost in everything. I’ve lost confidence in myself.
Is this even supposed to be a hectic month for me? I’m ignoring everything, every single questions & I will continue doing it.
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